2007-04-19 - 4:23 p.m.

i so want to quit my job today.

i got reemed out *again* for more retarded bullshit. apparently my quality of work is declining dramatically.

whatever. i've been doing the same as always. i actually thought i've been getting better. and if i really am doing something wrong, it's because the other flaky twit didn't teach me right. so go bitch her out and fuck off!

i'm so sick of getting in shit for doing something wrong because that stupid little moron didn't tell me how to do something. she's so unreliable! i'm tired of looking like an idiot because she sucks as a teacher.

this was all brought about by an offer that didn't get reported to the real estate board. it was a conditional, and no one even noticed what had happened until it was time to report that the offer had gone firm.

the agent decided to cover her ass by blaming me. thanks.

when the agents hand me stuff and i'm busy, i always put it to the side on my desk and usually with a note about what needs to be done to it. it's the "to do" pile and i work my way through it over the course of the day. that way, things don't get missed or filed away before it's complete.

obviously then, she never gave me anything because i would have noticed it sitting there.

but i get it, i'm the lowest on the totem pole, so it's just easier to blame me than to admit she's a flighty moron.

oh but the lecture didn't end there! heavens no. apparently the agents at the office don't need to hear me talking about my house-hunting. wtf?

i was told to cease and desist all talk of buying a house within the office walls. "you want to buy a house, that's fine. but you're not dealing with an agent here so they don't want to hear about it." i'm pretty sure that's word for word too.

nice eh? how fucking insensitive can you be? i mean, our agent is mike's sister! and she's been our agent since before i even started working there. anyone i've even mentioned to that i'm buying a house also knows that my agent is a relative!

AND i only bring it up with the agents if i'm asking them if they have a listing they can sell me. i mean, it's to their benefit! if i can't have one of my coworkers represent me, it'd be cool to at least buy a house they're selling.

not to mention, i rarely volunteer anything except to the boss's wife who isn't an agent anyway! if i talk about it any other time, it's usually because someone's asked me how it's going!

i know that the ones i've talked to about it either genuinely care because they're just nice people, or they're completely indifferent and wouldn't bother mentioning it to the boss. i can only think of a couple of the agents that petty and stupid. it makes me want to punch them.

no, fine. i won't fucking talk about anything anymore. next time one of the agents asks me how the house-hunting is going, i've decided on my response: "i'm not at liberty to say, since apparently none of you want to hear about it anyway."

fuck them. this is such a bunch of juvenile bullshit. i'm just so angry and hurt! i was shaking or crying all morning. why can't i work for and with people who don't suck?

oh right, because most of the world is retarded.

i really hope i become a rich novelist so i can be a hermit and never have to really deal with fucking stupid people ever again.

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